He left the lumber mill he owned accompanied by his beloved dog, Snowball. They walked the usual path around the small fishing pond, which sat peacefully between his home and the mill. 

It was lunchtime, and he knew his wife, Nannie, had his hot cornbread waiting on the table with fresh summer vegetables. He closed the screen door and went to the powder room adjoining the kitchen to wash his hands. After a minute or two, his wife began to call his name, fearing the cornbread was turning cold. When he did not respond, she found him lying still on the powder room floor. On Aug. 4, 1965, a man quietly moved from a busy, bustling earthly life to heaven within mere seconds. 

John Alexander Pugh, my 72-year-old grandfather, was a formidable, robust man, who left his family and community in shock and grief. My grandmother was inconsolable. 

Death can arrive abruptly with no warning, no chance to say all those things we intended to say yesterday which makes mourning even more difficult. I overheard folks at his visitation say, “I just saw John the other day, but I didn’t have time to stop and chat.” Or, “I meant to take a trip to see him this summer but got busy.” Regret accompanies death most of the time in one way or another, and for some, it never goes away. 

I was 17 and preparing for college when my granddaddy died. In the early morning following his death, I recall walking onto the carport of my grandparents’ home and found my father weeping.

Without taking his eyes off the mill sitting silently beyond the pond, he whispered, “John was the only father I ever knew, and I loved him.” At the time, I wondered if he ever told his father-in-law the depth of his feelings.

 My grandfather’s death taught me valuable lessons about life. I watched as folks came in and out of the screen door bearing food, flowers and thoughts. I grieved with those whose love spilled over this remarkable person who touched so many lives. My heart broke as I saw my usually strong mother consumed with weakness, realizing she would not have one more conversation with her dad. 

I felt my grandmother’s pain and saw raw emotion as I never before witnessed and learned at that moment what faith can do to it all.

Granddaddy was a deacon in his church and loved God. There is no question where this honorable, faithful servant is today. 

 My inconsolable grandmother finally started to see the sun again on a day when her eyes indeed saw that death isn’t the end.

She told the story many times of walking the mile to the cemetery to visit her husband’s grave several times a week for months following his death. Each time during her lonely trek home, she would be drenched in tears and covered with sorrow. One day, in the distance she saw her husband standing on the sidewalk with his hands on his hips, appearing very upset. 

She knew it was a strange vision and rubbed her eyes to erase the anomaly. However, as she proceeded toward the image; the clearer John became. 

“Nannie, what are you doing going to visit me at that grave and getting yourself all worked up and sad!” He emphatically asked. 

He continued, “You know I am not there! Use your faith!”

The vision abruptly left, and soon, so did her grief. She knew where John was and used her faith to inspire so many, including me.

That is what believing in and trusting God can do. With faith, you can hear the voices, see the visions, and experience healing relief with time.

At 17, I learned folks need one another when grief comes calling. Those cakes, casseroles and condolences are brought by friends to ease our burdens, to show their love and offer aid any way they can.

I learned to share and be open with my feelings today because I am painfully aware, the people I need to tell may not be there tomorrow. I am a big believer in all kinds of reunions because I don’t want to miss seeing a beloved friend or family member who may not attend another one. 

Yes, death will arrive, but it is not the end, it is just the end of this journey. I have endured the deaths of many and will experience its sting again. However, life lives on beyond the tomb of grief, pain and sadness to a place where we never will endure such sorrow again. 

If only we believe.